I know it's been awhile since I blogged...and I am sorry about that. I am going to try to blog more regularly, but fair warning: I'm pretty busy, so it might be sparse on this blog for awhile.
Life is busy right now-- for a lot of different reasons: Work and part time work (I took a part time evening and weekend job to help put more money in savings, will quit this when I find a better full time job). Dave is studying for his licensing exams (and passed his first one!). Travel (went home for a wedding). My Jr. League project and finishing up first year requirements. Three sets of company in town over 4 weeks (Clearly this is FUN busyness, but busyness just the same!)
On top of that, we have had a lot of snow the past month and a few challenges -- both personal challenges and the challenge of a heavy heart for several people I know who are struggling.
All that to say, I am physically and emotionally exhausted. And, as a result, I've been a bad blogger...which is probably a good thing as I tend to not be the most positive when I am so worn out. (Dave likes to mock me and say, "That's my Katy, such an optimist!")
I don't get to see my friends or husband nearly enough....so I am ready for life to slow down. I'm ready for lazy evenings curled up on the tv with Dave, happy hour with friends, date nights, exploring different neighborhoods in DC, cooking new recipes, reading good books (wasn't one of my goals for 2014 to read more??) and going to the movies. If I can survive the next couple of months, life will slow down a bit.
Sometimes I feel guilty about being busy and tired. I don't have enough time to give to others or enough time to rest and I don't even have time to cook meals that often anymore (thank goodness for the premade meals at Trader Joes!) Recently, there have been several articles published criticizing Americans for idolizing busy. The accusations is that we are too busy, putting emphasis on what we do and accomplish rather than people. Also, some people think "being busy" is a way to make ourselves feel like we are important.
I actually agree with these viewpoints to an extent...but sometimes busy is necessary and temporary. If I am always this tired, then I will make some big changes, but for now, I feel that my busyness is short lived and good.
Galations 6:9 tells us to not become weary in doing good because at the proper time, we will reap the harvest. And that's where my comfort is found: I believe that most of my current busyness- long hours of work, Jr League projects, saving, jobsearching, Dave's studying -- are all good things that can be done in a way that glorifies the Lord. Despite this temporary state of weariness, I know we will not regret this busy stage of life.
I think one of the best ways to fight weariness is by having a grateful heart. Part of why I am so tired is because of good things: a job, opportunities to serve, company in town, etc. What blessings! Also, having less free time makes me grateful for the time I have to relax by myself or with others. I don't have as many evenings with Dave, so I am really grateful for date nights and Sundays. The occasional HH or lunch with friends lifts my spirits. Catching up on missed TV is such a treat. Having visitors and getting much needed "friend and family" time is wonderful and needed!
So, that's why I've been MIA.... Life has been busy which is both stressful and good, all at once! I have a ton of pictures and plenty of posts in my head and hope to post more regularly again, although I make no promises!
And, if you, too, are feeling weary and too busy...remember that busy isn't always a bad thing. Sometimes we are busy doing good. Tasks like working late hours to save or finish a project, donating time to a charity, late hours up with a newborn or studying for a class may keep you busy and tired for a short time, but those same tasks could be good...and we are told to do good.
Oh, and P.S., if you are a praying person, can you say some prayers on my behalf? I would like to find a different full time position soon that pays enough that I don't have to work part time in order to save. I know the Lord is opening up doors and I can't wait to see where He places me, but I pray the answer comes sooner rather than later and I pray I have endurance and patience while waiting!
I'm sorry that things are so crazy---I know what you mean about wanting some down time! I hope you get some soon! And I'll be praying on the job front for sure!
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